Chronicles of Samantha

2007-02-14T22:05:00.000+08:00

This is my final post for this blog, i believe.
As my com has consistenly rejected this website, I've decided to shut it down.
A new blog has been made.
www.wretch.cc/blog/mglover. This is my new blog web.
Feel free to visit it...:D

By the way.... Happy Valentine's Day to all.

Sam...

2007-01-20T20:44:00.000+08:00

Weee. Finally i can update update update!
Unfortunely, it is not because blogger now loves me but its because im using someone else's com.

So...2007. Brand new year, brand new year.
Or not?
Seriously, the year has been hectic and nothing but that...
1st week of school topical tests...then comes to lessons.
And lastly, never ending tutorials!
The homeworks for one week has been like doubled/tripled as compared to last year's workload.
OH yes, i hear the constant voice..*ALEVEL coming*that explains it.
And im like dead by end of everyday.
Either i go home to have an afternoon nap before completing work.
Or when there is no work (due the day after) then i would sleep at 11pm.
Goodness, do you how how early is that?!

And there are like triple the activities this year.
Take dance for example...there was only panorama to care about.
And now...what cny(not as if im involved but...), syf, town council....
blahs blahs blahs.
Oh and dance. 3times a week. latest released at 7.30pm. zzz

So yup, that basically sums up my life since start of the year.
School, home, dance.
And i wonder, i really dont have a life, do i?

Sam...

2006-12-25T17:43:00.000+08:00

Merry Christmas to all...

Sam... ^___^

2006-12-24T01:02:00.000+08:00

Ah Choo... Ah Choo...

AHHHH choo...~

2006-12-23T04:48:00.000+08:00

In less than a week, I will not be sitting in front of this computer anymore...

One hour plus ago, I just finished watching Silence. Its a touching love story. Its not the genre i would actually watch, but because of him, I did. But i did not regret it, because i think its a pretty story. Really felt like crying but couldnt because the 2 adults apparently thought they were accompanying me whereas how i wish i could push them into a room and keep them away from me. I really enjoy isolation when im in a world of shows. And i do not like the idea of someone watching me watch the show. Especially...when I wish to cry. Not because i dont want to cry in front of them, but because they would think im stupid to cry because of a fake story.

Im never a person who like crowds. I hate the noise. And i hate that feeling. Because I can never be one of them who can breeze through the people and entertain them all the way. I can never speak in a way that make people like me instantly. Nor can i speak comfortably and sensibly outside my circle of friends. Maybe that is why i prefer isolation. However i must say that although i like my own world of isolation, there are times whereby i love to listen. Dont force me to talk, dont question why im so quiet, dont find me weird and lonely, because these are just times where i wish to just listen.

No matter how much a person loves loneliness, there is always a time whereby one would welcome the idea of someones comfort.

Have no idea why i would say this much about myself here. Maybe you might not think one paragraph is alot but if you know me for long, this self admittance should freak you out. Because its also freaking me out. This self realisation came eons ago but never have i said it out. Im changing. I know it. But this way of exposing part of me, is it a good choice or bad...? You say it.

Sam...Sorry for the sudden randomness and switch in subject. ^___^

2006-12-18T06:39:00.000+08:00

A few days back, I would have typed... I'm homesick. I miss HOME. I wanna go back.

Now that im going back in a few more days, i just wanna say... I will miss this place.

I guess no matter how much i dislike a place, there are always positive qualities in it that attracts me. No matter how much i wish to leave, there are always feelings attached to it. I guess as long as there is a relaxed lifestyle or some things that you yearn for in that country, you will definetly miss it. Maybe not wanting to stay there permanently...but someday, i will want to come back and visit and experiment it again. One day, i might be lying on the bed, recollecting all that happened. And that is the time when i will revisit again.

I will miss Paris and London. I am missing Auckland and HongKong already. And surprisingly, there is a part of me missing Singapore...( that does not mean i wanna go back any sooner though) Maybe its because of the friends there. Without them, i guess there would no longer be anymore yearning and no longer any qualities that attracts me.

For now, i will just continue my remaining (holi) days and enjoy myself before a hectic (and disastrous) year ahead.

P.S I REALLY WANT TO GO BACK TO HKG AND WISH I CAN SPEND LONGER DAYS THERE! Why cant holidays be extended......

Sammie up.

2006-12-09T01:29:00.000+08:00

Currently, Im situated in Paris. And the time now is 6.30pm. Am waiting to go for dinner while typing this.

My 2nd time here (based on my memory) and still, its not one of my favorite countries.

I dislike the fact that ppl here speak french and only french. Every word is in french too. I just dont like to be in a place where i dont understand and cant communicate.

Secondly, i dont like places that take ages to travel. From here to Village, it took me 45mins. To carrefour, 20mins. I haven been into Paris city but i can just imagine the distance and time...

Lastly, the things are in EUROS. Goodness, everything is so expensive. From food to clothes...Although the numbers are small and makes u feel its cheap, but try moving a decimal for hkg dollars and times 2 for sg dollars. The price makes me repulsive...

And my final note is... I still love HKG for its cheap shopping and Singapore for its yummilicious cheap food. Shall try and enjoy my time here although its tough. But TA-TA for now.

Sammmmmm.

2006-12-03T12:01:00.000+08:00

Back in HK already. Cant say im enjoying it loads coz the kids are driving me nuts but still...I'm in the process of enjoying.

And for the first day..I dint end up eating steamboat as i would have expected ( coz the uncles aka big eaters wont there) but i ate Baby Blue anyway. Yummy. And when i landed i already went to play Jumpin Gym. Luck was apparently not on my side as i threw about 10 coins and none went into the rainbow, not even when its touching the line. :( I also went to Mongkok to shop...shopping on the first day. Hahas. But nope, i never buy anything. Like for once. Coz its too crowded and stuffy and making me dizzy. Therefore i just decided to walk outside the shop looking at the fashion and head home. Shall go another day before school ends which means before 1 or 2pm. WHICH i dont know if i will wake up that early? But if i do and my mum too, i shall drag her there.

Oh. And my night. I thought i would be too sleepy and ignored the comics i borrowed. But NO. I started reading it and i cant put my hands down. Must thank the girl who introduce it to me. Nice!~ About this girl who has the power to fortune read and have to 'feng pi' those darkness. Eventually her past revealed who she was before she incarcinated and she and her guardians have to fight the darkness together. Not really something i would read but i cant just reject the girl coz' they are always so enthu into introducing. But nevertheless, i still like it. Ended up sleeping at 5am.

And now... I'm typing away. Guess the un-sleepiness is setting in again. Coz i actually woke up at 11am! Dont think im going anyway later but most probably i would like to go return and borrow comics. The girl might just think im nuts coz i borrowed for less then 24 hrs and she gave me a week to read it. Hahs. Or maybe im just going to borrow vcds to watch instead~

Oh. And must i need to mention. I went to the vcd shop and omgosh, i saw SILENCE VCD. OK its not that wow-ing since sg also has it. But then, the box is so nice! VCDs are split to 3 boxes $179 for each while DVDs have 2 boxes for $299 each. Nice boxes equals nice price. Seriously dont want to spend too much for i still have few other shows to buy therefore im gonna buy the china one to watch first while waiting for this price to drop. Hope discounts are up soon ( i know its not possible) but im keeping my hopes up.

Shall end here. Will not be blogging for quite awhile. Cya when im back.
Sam.

2006-11-28T21:46:00.000+08:00

Firstly....Sorrie lao pa. Dint know the cd from you also mahs...Thought you only think of it never buy. BUT thank you nahs. Hahas.

And for the main topic of the day... IM ACHING ARHS...!
One two down three four up five six down and up and down and up. Those actions are killing me. Now my leg is too weak already. I cant even get up or sit down without supporting myself. OH and not to forget those bend and 'tan bei'...! Legs are shaking all the way.

Cant imagine the next dance lesson. And dont wanna imagine those that i will miss. :(

And for the side note... PLEASE PLEASE triple please. Let me sleep past 12 tomorrow! I dont wanna be reminded of the pain that i cannot be at the event. Cannot see him. I dont wanna be disappointed by the fact that he is here and i have a choice to go but in the end dint go. PLease spare my heartbreak. I would rather decieve myself that i overslept. The only consolation is that more photos would be up. And i hope extra merchandise would be sold.

And on a happier note. He is coming and hence magazine and newspapers have him! But although most of the things they say are positive things there is one that is considered negative. Although even i admit its true, but...haha i still love him lahs.

Lastly, i hate sun zong. To the core.

Sam.

2006-11-27T16:58:00.000+08:00

Now now...thanks for the gifts that were given...

Ah ma: OMG ur drawing rocks. I especially luurve the bicycle one. So funny! And the pigs were cute so thanks for it...;) Oh and that ''hu shen fu'' that you called it. I haven thought of what to do with it but shall gurantee i wont treat it as rubbish and dump it! Hahs.

OMA: THANKS for the chocolate roses...! But i sure wont eat de mahs... Haish next time if someone give me like the concert Jerry give liddat arhs, I sure melt de. Hees. Oh and ur puzzle too... Although really puzzle me that u give me MARIE, but i confirm will do it and frame it de. Come see it next time in HK. hees.

Sockie: Thanks for the CD orhs. Although i 'discovered' your plan but still thanks alot...! Been wanting it so long le....

LAO PA: Xin ku le orhs. Specially walk in the rain come to deliver the piglet speaker. I thought you alone come still think you so good, in the end....ur sis acc u! Hahas. But still, its really good during exam times when i dont want on com but still wanna hear songs!

Really really thanks for all the gifts. Hearts it alot. Hearts you all too. Muacks.
P.S. paisae you all de bdae pressie i also haven prepare BUT shall deliver to you nextt year. If possible. hahas.

THANKS.
Sam.

2006-11-27T16:47:00.000+08:00

Yup and this late post is to thank B.A.II and papa for celebrating me and sockie bdae together...!

-kboxing time, although oma n ah ma in the end still no go :S but I had fun. ESPECIALLY the nuts...**Sorry we cannot waste them...what the heck stupid reason.**

-Billy Bombers time although i really hate that damn bubblegum and the weird spaghetti AND the wadeva Sex on the Beach that has been ordered but at least we joked around.

-supermarket-ing time and the fun and laughter in them. Shao fu ren. wahahas. My future job. AND not to forget....the *ahem ahem* incident that sockie made. P.S do you know got one ang moh staring and smiling at u! hahas.

-baking cake time. The result really not bad lohs considering we dont have baking powder and estimate ALL of the proportion. At least its edible and you all dint end up running toilet RIGHT?! hees. To think the bdae girls have to bake their own cake and serve you all somemore...The strawberry chocolate we made were also fun and yummilicious... OK and give ah ma face, thanks for cutting the strawberry up although u took like ages to cut that few strawberries...

-yubai and S.H.E talk and laughter...

== TO BE CONTINUED==

2006-11-26T22:22:00.000+08:00

Call me outdated if you wish, but no matter what, I admit i love F4. Forever...
Actually if u ask me, i dont feel outdated, coz everyday i bet one individual out there is watching MG and falling head over heels over them.
And i prefer to call myself faithful too. Hees.

Now why am i suddenly talking about them...Not because i just rewatched their concert ytd but coz i read a article about them!
This year is their 5th anniversary.
And...the long agonising wait of their CD is already OUT! or soon i guess...

OMG. Talking about this, im so excited already.
Although i admit i feel sad for not being able to go to Jerry event even when im in SG,
although i admit i still feel disappointed for sonybmg to not have their recent concert vcd,
And although i admit i feel down for not having any new songs in this cd...
BUT, no matter what, im still thankful it is out.

Now, what i need to worry need to think about...is how do i find that cd?!
I bet singapore would not have it.
Like duhs, i know F4 fans are limited in sg but still...
Anyway i will get my hands on that cd. EVENTUALLY.

Seriously i cant imagine what am i to do without F4.
They have opened my heart to a world that i never knew.
They have opened my eyes to all those eye candies out there.
They have brought me topics and areas for discussion.
They have given me fantasies to wonder about.
They have given me Meteor Garden to watch over again.
They have given me laughter, tears, joys, sorrow....emotions evoked from seeing them.
Lastly, they have given me wonderful friends... (indirectly that is.but still)

If not for F4, i would not be me.
That may seem exaggerated, but believe me...its not.
Because i know me in the past and me now.
And i love the present me who is interested in taiwanese entertainment.

F4 F4 F4.
Cheers to F4. Fantasy 4ever.
My princes.
Sam.

2006-11-24T00:33:00.000+08:00

Happy 17th. Birthday SOCK!
Lazy to sms so shall just wish you here.
Hope you have a nice and wonderful day tomorrow.
And shall see you soon...IF we ever decide on the time and place and activity.
So CIAO~
Hope all your dreams come true.
Love ya.
Muacks.

Sam....B.a.ii.

2006-11-21T20:10:00.000+08:00

Weee~ I'm back.

By now, those who wonder where i was should have known already.

The 3 clues...Hehs.

Can you guess?

Beautiful sceneries, nice people, wonderful food.

Now im seriously considering going there to study instead of Melbourne.

But...MONEY is always the issue. :(

Of course, my grades too.

But i would rather ignore that fact.

So..Now here i am back in sg to attend dance and art sem.

My muscles are seriously cramp-ing and my neck still hurts.

The spins really coz me serious headache and nauseous-ness.

The stretching nearly took my life.

I cant imagine the other lessons.

AND to think i have to skip so many too.

I think im gonna die when im back.

I've said i would go back on 27th but i might sacrifice for dance :S

I have no idea when i'll leave...

Shall enjoy this few days in sg,

try to finish hw (if i even start in the 1st place),

rewatch shows, read ffs and...

PERM/ CUT/ DO SOMETHING to my hair.

Ciaoz~

Sam.

2006-11-02T18:46:00.000+08:00

Staying clear of this house is the right thing.
I really enjoyed the overnight stay in Sockie's.
Its been soooo LONG since B.A.I gathering.
OK maybe not that long but yeah...

And that period of time there rocks.
The mahjong-ing, poker-ing, singing, drinking, eating and most importantly, Laughing.
Oh i have no idea why my luck was so bad that day that after so many hours i won less than 5 rounds?
And i lost 3.40 :S
But the laughing was classique.
Gosh ah ma, i so suay for mahjong BUT you are cursed for poker. HAHS.

Anywaes, i aint supposed to be doing this, but i just am bored out.
A level chi tomorrow but nope i just dont want to touch a single thing yet.
Its supposed to be holidays, who in the right mind would study.
So all the best for tomorrow for anyone out there. Myself too.
Bless me.

On a last but random note, there's Jerry news in yubai today.
Seeeing him just brightens my remaining day.
Gosh, i really really heart him alot.
Talk about FOREVER. :D

Sam.

2006-10-29T22:03:00.000+08:00

Show respect to elders. What crap.
Before even telling me to show respect,show some to me first.
Like seriously. You dont like me i dont like you.
The feeling is mutual...

I wish they all just die die die.
Especially her, bitch. Money sucker.
Wanna commit suicide, just go die now.
And him, idiot perverted sicko.
Go to hell.
And to her, dont talk crap.
Just shut your frigging mouth up and everyone will be happier.

Life would be so good. Without them.
Everything will be great, just the 2 of us.
No others.
I hate them.
Forever.
I said this before. And i did it to her.
Now im gonna say it again.
When you die, im never going to shed a single tear for you. Not one droplet.

This is gonna be a long crappy holiday.
I freaking hate Singapore and everything here.
I cant wait to leave this fucking irritating place.
Unless they all vanish, i shall never ever wanna step foot here again.
I hate this place.
I hate them.
Go die.

Burning. Dont further pissify me.
Understand English...?

2006-10-28T21:43:00.000+08:00

Mood has taken another dip down down down and nothing seems to be able to bring it up again.
Not even S.H.E, not even my mum, not anybody...
But still, i kinda enjoyed yesterday's short moment of 'zi high-ness' and mahjong-ing time. So thanks for those moments...
Today had been generally ok till the end of my trip BUT went all the way to beyond bad and have not been up again till now.
I hope RAINIE (wochai) and MG2 later can make me happier.

I am still pissed with my Nov school daze. The schedule sucks to the core...
I'm arranging things here and there. So changes might occur anytime.
And i choose to keep silent.

All the best. For myself.
Falling to the bottom of the pit.
Sam.

2006-10-22T02:53:00.000+08:00

Am watching (or rather listening) MG2 as im typing away... Just finished THE CONFRONTATION (as i call it) in Chapter 23. My tears are not flowing but my heart still wrenched an itsy tinny bit... Anyway enough of that, shall hurry up with this post and resume watching the show.

Basically I've planned an outline for my holidays already...

NOV: Simply put it, Im in SG, what else can i do?
1. Read my story books that i've bought and piled.
2. Buy more books in MPH before expiry dates!
3. Go for exams and remedials etc....zzz
4. TRY to do homework before i leave.
5. Do my best to READ Brave New World

DEC: In HK...What more can i say...
1. Drown in the vcds that i've wanted to watch for oh so long.
> The Hospital
> Silence
> City of Sky
> Tokyo Juliet
> E zuo ju ji wen
> etc etc etc...
2. Borrow some other new movies that will be out
3. Read comics if i can squuueze some time out
4. Shopping but trying NOT to over-buy
5. Go to some other country (need to use FOCTicket if not wasted!)
6. PIG OUT
7. Basically relax and enjoy and slack...

Yuppie. Thats basically my plan for the holiday. I have tests the first wk of school and i have NO idea how am i gonna study for it with my ' packed' schedule. I know i should really mug hard and suffer for 1 more year but holidays are REALLLI hard to resist..So...shall see how.

OK this post takes longer than i expected. Luckily the part that i really looked forward to is not here yet. Shall end here now...

P.S. My bdae is on 14nov so please buy cakes for me..treat it as out of pity that i have to spend my birthday in SG doing practically nothing. Preety please...

Sam.

2006-10-19T23:29:00.000+08:00

After that miserable horrigible previous post, this is a HAPPY one.

Finally after days of sadness, im thankful for today....

1. Met up with B.A.II plus Papa.
2. Pooling --- my skills improved le ba.
3. Sakae with that whatever games.
4. Movies + popcorn.
5. Lame-ing + chatting

Basically its just catching up after a long long long time...And im so HAPPY.
Had so much fun despite the headache and stomachache and the wadeva aches...
Watched death note. Im a genius cos i predicted the ending. Whahas.
Overall draggy movie (3hrs!!!) but not bad.
Actually i concentrated more on getting a nice position and not having stiff neck and back and trying not to pee in my pants.

Overall i really really had a great great time today.
I love catching up and joking around! Weee~

Love ya....
Sam. Muacks.

2006-10-19T23:20:00.000+08:00

SAD SAD SAD.....!!

I'm officially MAID LESS as of yesterday. Goodness, i cant stand it. Whats the problem with her lahs....Cant she just wait till i leave for HK before firing the maid. Now i dont even have a proper meal daily. And i still have like 1 more month in SG.

SUCKS BIG TIME....!

Talking about this, im reminded of WHY i have to stay for another month....

Art actually has make up seminars and other activities till 30Nov. Goodness. And i thought i could leave after that damn OP. BIG BIG sians....

Why oh why is my life like this.
Talk about Holidays.
Talk about miserable.
I'm gonna spend my bdae herE.
Please celebrate for me.
Or i shall be DE---PRESSED.

SIANS SAM.

2006-10-14T21:00:00.000+08:00

Argh been so moody these days. Life sucks. School sucks.
PISSIFYING.
I wanna go back HK like badly badly and badly....
But holidays arent coming anytime soon.

Gotten back my results.
Its horribly attrocious....
But i will be promoted.
Damn pissed with ECONS and disappointed for SOVA.
A B C D D E. thats wad i got. freaking ugly...

Seriously i wonder if i should stay in JC.
I dont seem to be able to produce good results.
And i dont see that i would produce it during A's too.
ARGH. See i hate life...And school...Why do they place so much importance in a damn result.

Anywaes, went to chalet on thurs.
First time i went to chalet...Lao pa must be so proud of me hors. Hahas.
It was OK. At least i dint get bored and had some fun in between.
But goodnesss, i am damn tired and sleepy...Even of now.
I guess thats the only good thing that happened amidst the time of the release of results.

I shall just hope the remaining days will zooooom pass and I can return to HK.
Forget about school and life here.
Bless me. Bless you.
Sam.

2006-10-09T22:18:00.000+08:00

I am freaking PISSED off with you and the rest.
Its gonna reach a limit soon.
And when it burst...

This few days had gone exactly according to my schedule.
And as predicted...I AM BROKE.
Took a whole lot from my bank AND AND AND...
Damn you, u haven added that 1000 into it.

Anyways. I'm damn tired and pissed off.
I have no mood for school, no mood for chalet.
I just wanna stay at home and isolate myself.
I wish everyone around me disappears.
Argh...

Sam.

2006-10-06T23:28:00.000+08:00

I just lurvveee after exam holidays! 4 days off consecutively. Goodness.. Its heaven.
(of coz i shall never be reminded of the papers coming back...!)

Anyways...my schedule tentative.
Later: Lanterning again maybe? 2movies: SHES THE MAN, THE BREAK-UP.
I just love that movie that i must rent it again!!! I swear im gonna buy it someday and watch it as many times as WHAT A GIRL WANTS!
Tomorrow: Stay Alive movie.
It supposed to be today but that darn GV cancelled its 5pm slot. WTH. Make me rush tmall in the end...Demoralising lahs.
Sunday: Rest.
Must have a day to sleep in like finally....
Monday: Facial plus KBOX DAY!
Gosh 10.30 must reach CS for facial.... Torturing to wake up so early but no choice. Next slot at 3 and i want kbox from 2-7. Sigh, Talk about sacrifices...
Tuesday: Cant wait to eat burger!
Meiling, dont play me out/ pang seh me hors.... Hope nothing pops up ba~

And the rest of the wk continues with school again. I hate school life. I dont wanna think about the results and the impending death of PW and yups PW. ZZZ.

Tata For Now.
Ciao~
Samantha.

2006-10-04T00:17:00.000+08:00

What am i doing here typing this out and surfing the net when i have an exam tomorrow.
Simple. I totally give up on maths. Cant really remember anything and am reluctant to redo questions. Therefore i decided to stop and type and leave all to whatever i really learnt on the spot tomorrow. Exams are a test of what you learnt right, so why mug...

2 more papers to go... Maths and Lit Atwood.
I cant wait cant wait cant wait for that 4 days break from school.

Lets see, Art yesterday was OK. I hope i did fairly well though i might be incoherent and repeat points cause surviving 3 hrs was no mean feat. Lit today was kinda disastrous. Poetry: I repeated my evidence again and again in different stanza for the same point. Great Ex: I cant believe i did this but yeah, I NARRATED the freaking story. What to do when i spend almost 6 mins searching for the darn quote and cant find any....

So all past had past...I dont wanna remember it till neccessary.
Now let me just hope for the best for maths and atwood.
And please let friday come asap.
Cant wait for mooncake festival, kbox and shopping.

Sam.

2006-10-04T00:04:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 2nd BAII ANNIVERSARY.
(ok belated i suppose but oh wells...)

Firstly, i would like to thank you 3 for the wonderful 2 years spent together.
I will never ever forget the day we started playing with names and coming out with this name, never forget the wild wild wet trip, the mugging of OLEVELS and most importantly our, bi ye lv xing that we planned for 2 years....HONGKONG.

Ah ma: Youngest yet oldest. Irony. Hehes. But thanks for being my friend this years, very interesting knowing u and ur cold cold cold joke.(though we never talk at all in sec 1. u really look fierce!) Must continue being cold xia qu orhs. If not very weird. hahas

LAOma: Same as ah ma, i doubt u will read this. But still, im so happy that u are the first i met in ESSS and we managed to continue this friendship till now. Ever so comfy to support my weight, hahas. And thanks for shopping with me in HK.

Sockie meix: Known you the shortest time but its ok coz we still spend alot of time having fun. Still remembered 1st time saw you was when we went to SUPERSTAR autograph session together. Then after that my constant partner for autograph sessions! And remember kbox sessions! Stay cheerful always.

I hope that we will continue celebrating this day in years to come. Lets all keep in touch no matter where we will be in future ok. P.S please please please dont obsessed with game le. Ke lian wo, go out with me mahs. Hahs. So yups cya soon. OMA faster come back so we can celebrate belated belated belated anniversary!

Sammie.
BAII Wen zi
shang.

2006-10-01T02:28:00.000+08:00

This is such a sin. Today was a sin.
I just hope i dont get punished...
In summary, i slack the whole day, without doing productive work.
Believe it or not, i went for dinner too.
And when im back, nope i never hit the books.
Shit-ness. Am regretting big big time!

God please forgive me. I will try my best to curb this ill behavior of mine.

Ok talk about the paper.
Goodness, im gonna just jot it down and shhh.
NO ONE IS EVER GONNA ASK ME AGAIN!
One word. HORRENDOUS!!!

GP essay was ok. I thought i did ok.
The compre. Goodness. 1 hr for just 2 qns.
15-20mins for AQ. And i have only 2 pts.
Great. Im so dammit dead.
Not that i am alive for GP in the first place but wtf.

God Econs was tough tough tough. Do they wanna kill students?!
I dont know what happened to me.
I guess its just like what Ms Kon described...
I went in, soul left, took the paper, finish, soul went back and I dont know what i just did.
Get the point. ITS BAD.

I hope i have the will to study tomorrow.
And bless me for the rest of my days.
Essays essays and more essays.
God bless.

Sam.

2006-09-12T00:26:00.001+08:00

Damn blogger...Its getting worse.

And im gonna repeat my prayers:
"Dear God, please guide me to the correct path ASAP. Amen."

Its freaking scary and a little teeny winny bit irritating to see people mug like hell throughout the holidays while me slacking all the way. I know its my fault but like duhs- I NEVER study 3 wks before an exam before...And i dont know how to start. Teach me, control me someone!

Gosh i really need to buck up like soon soon and soon. But how...The damn piles of work that comes continously and GP presentation and art essay uncompleted etc etc etc. I cant handle my time.

My time management sucks, get the point.
And my motivation level is reaching deep below....

Anyway this post is just a way to vent my anger and frustration that my hols has ended and school started and promos are around the corner and work is piling up AND i have not mugged like i promised to- in other words im DISAPPOINTED in myself.

I'll continue trying to find the correct track and till then, bless me.

On the verge of collapse,
Sam.

2006-09-10T15:28:00.000+08:00

I just had to post this up...

My manicure + pedicure + nail art done is Shenzhen.
Less than SG 20. Cheap heys.
Had to post it before i remove them for school tomorrow.

Rare self shot photos of myself posted.

TO BE CONTINUED...

2006-08-31T19:34:00.000+08:00

I heaarrt my mum!
But seriously, she can be such a pain in the ass sometimes.
Nevertheless, i still love her.
But no way am i gonna say it to her. :P

I lurvvve B.A.I. How can i forget those times...;)

How can i forget Lao Pa with her quarellings.

What will my life be without them...My souce of happiness.

**************************************

The above are the most important people in my life. Without them, I have no idea what i am.

Love them, hearts them, forever. Thanks alot for making me ME.

Sam.

2006-08-26T22:25:00.000+08:00

Blue. Im so feeling blue.
Today is a horrible disastrous day.
I knew it since i woke up~
Gosh regret even stepping out of the house.
No i shall comment no more.
Its not a day to store in my memory.

Feeling so damn sleepy.
I just hope 12.30 comes soon.
Im afraid i'll fall asleep, but i shall perserve!
MG2 totally can mend my entire mood.
But till then, the day still sucks.

If anyone still remembers, last sat sucks too.
My saturdays are cursed. Like seriously.
I hope next wk gets better...
Im finally outta here!
One sad case, I'll miss MG2. ))):

Till then.
Sammie

2006-08-19T23:13:00.000+08:00

Econs test was crap.
Sleep mends everything.
MG later helps too.

Finally changed blog skin.
The box for typing seems alittle too small.
Dilema between 2 blogs.
But ahma say this suits me more.
So shall stick with it.

Plenty of homework.
All undone.
Supposed to be doing now.
But forget it.

1hr20mins more to happiness.
Sam.

2006-08-18T21:55:00.000+08:00

Its Friday- supposedly a day to finally rest and relax.
Well i said SUPPOSEDLY. so it aint no day to slack.
Tomorrow Econs Faculty Test.
Have read through the notes for the past few days.
But no. I did not memorise them.
Therefore...i cant remember nuts of anything.
So...The conclusion is. I AM DEAD.
Should have started studying but its FRIDAY.
How can i not slack? With all the goody shows tonight.
Guess i'll prolly start at 11. Stop at 12.30. Start at 1.30 again.
Not sure if i can follow the plan throughout or just decide to give up halfway.
God bless.
Sam.

2006-08-16T23:17:00.000+08:00

I enjoyed ART today.
Experimented alittle.
Made me pondered over some qns.
I've came to a conclusion that i am one who prefer listening to a set of fixed instructions.
This is so not good.
Cos im not daring enough to try new things.
YES. I must try and improve this area!

Chinese was a bore.
Only 'woke' up when she mentioned 'BAI SE JU TA'.
She said she went back to Taiwan and saw the Jerry craze.
She dislike Jerry.
Nope, i dont feel anger and contempt towards her.
Everyone have their own views,
Im never gonna hate ppl for theirs.
As long as im crystal clear that I LOVE HIM.
And that those who love me accepts him too.
(oH, why remind me of it during lessons. I so wanna watch it ASAP!)
But it makes me wonder.
Why does fate like to play tricks on people?
Why make someone who disliked that person meet while
one who adores him will never have this fate to see him?

I'm on my way of improving myself.
Please help me. Give me comments.

Samantha.

2006-08-14T19:23:00.000+08:00

The Hospital Trailer (more on romance side)

I'm dying to watch this show. Hope vcds dvds whatever come out ASAP!

P.S. Good luck and Jia You to those of you taking exam soon!
Especially sock...Jia you x 3!
Remember to bless me for mine too. Heehs.

Sammie.

2006-08-13T22:46:00.000+08:00

and the contacts never got back...blame myself blame them.

Seriously, you know why i dislike SG.
Not that i hate it or anything.
BUT. its just not for me...
ESPECIALLY after that event on Saturday.
You know what happened.

And so. Back to which. A reminder.
NEVER and i mean EVER to squeeze just to catch 15mins of fireworks.
No matter how nice and pretty it is,
its just not worth it.
The atmosphere is just so Wrong.

Im badly missing holidays.
And am constantly reminded of promos.
What if what if what if...I failed.
No one would believe me when i say i might fail.
But i know myself.
Oh gosh, when can i learn to buck up.
I dont wanna be filled with regrets.

AND on a happier note after that part disastrous night on Sat.
I AM SO GLAD I DID NOT KNOCK OUT. Lao pa.
Cos there is METEOR GARDEN 2 at 12.30am.
Damn im estastic watching it. I love it.
Just great to end my day.

And yupps. Thanks to Meix and Papa.
I really really enjoyed KBOX.
And you know which part i just love most.
The most emotional part of all. Looking at them!
Hahas. And of coz the out of tune singing done...
Looking forward to next kbox outing.
But i have a feeling its gonna be oh-so-long.
So till then...lets go EAT.
Wahahas.

Fluctuations. Sam.

2006-08-08T14:12:00.000+08:00

Frig them all. I hope they die die die and vanish from my sight!
Cant even tell whose is whose belonging.
Take anything they see in sight.
Freak them.
I want my contact boxes and my contacts intact!
If not i want U to compensate it.
My damn contacts is only 1 day old and 30 days before it freaking expires.
U have 2 damn contact boxes in ur hell toilet why MUST u freaking come over and take mine.
Damn u. Freak u. Fuck u.
It better comes back if not u are forever condemned.

2006-08-06T20:09:00.000+08:00

Life just sucks these days.
Happiness does not stay.
Anger prolongs.
Misery returns.
Everything is going haywired.
Im sick and tired of this.
When can I have the freedom and the life i want.
But rest assured.
I will never fall into that pit again.
At least not for now.

Just wishing to have a happy simple life with loving environment and people.
Is that too much to wish for...?

Sam.

2006-08-02T22:07:00.000+08:00

I am super duper EXHAUSTED.

dARNS. sNowballing effect gettting on me.
rushing rushing rushing everyday.
Im beginning to have NO life.
Not that i really mind...
I just need sufficient time to sleep and watch tv...!
And i will be satisfied.

I just wanna sleep sleep sleep all day.

Sleepy sammie. zzz

2006-07-29T23:08:00.000+08:00

Moods. They are like a rollercoaster ride.
At least thats what is mine.
A second is all i need to turn angry or frustrated.

Feelings. They cant be controlled.
Or at least mine cant.
A second is all i need to detest you.

Hopes. Dont let it get up.
Everything that goes up WILL come down.
A second is all that it takes for hopes to come crashing on you.

==================================================

Just finished my part for GE. Hope everything can be done on time by tomorrow night.
EoM just sucks. I might redo with a new article. Gonna leave it to tomorrow though.
Just bought PRINCESS HOURS and Ruffles CHEDDAR N SOUR CREAM.
Jealous?
Gonna enjoy my night and slave through piles of homework tomorrow.

Contented Sammie~

2006-07-27T22:19:00.000+08:00

My bones and muscles are aching big time. From the arms to the abdomen till legs. Yesterday was really a day for stretching and pulling. Hahs. But sadly it might be our last lesson with huang lao shi. Big shocker for me. Dint know the school intended to make this week our last week for CCA and only resumed on 13.11. Wth lahs. Why would anyone need THAT long to study when promos in October. As if anyone would study. Whats the difference one day will make?! Haish. And i thought i can finally start stretching and become flexible soon. Hahas. So much for that....Regrets Regrets.

================================================================

I took a step and looked back
and then realised
the more i want to fit in
the more i change
and then im losing myself.
Who am i...?
I dont know anymore.
Why dont you tell me?

Sammie

2006-07-25T23:15:00.000+08:00

Freak BLOGGER...!

Wrote something yesterday and after i clicked submit, the whole system down! Dint even attempt to save my post! Frig lahs. And i think i wrote quite beautifully yesterday....!!!!! ARGH. I hate this. Spoiler... Now i cant remember what i wrote. And even if i did...the mood is not there anymore. Sucker..!!!!

Angry.
SaM.

2006-07-22T16:08:00.000+08:00

*Phew* Finally had time to BREATE! This whole week was just pure hectic-ness...!

2 presentations and 3 days straight of lit tutorials plus other homework was just not easy. And i must say, I really really really dislike presentations. I am NOT a speaker for goodness sake! Well the only comforting thought is that its OVER, like finally! My next presentation is the week after next so yup, can relaxed a short while. While this week is horrible, im looking forward for the next. Why? Coz i dont seem to have any 'work' i have to rush out! Hope i can go home early~

I feel so much more refreshed now! After sleeping for 14 hours (not straight of course. woke up 2 times for 15mins) , had a slight headache once i opened my eyes but its no biggie. At least i know i've slept enough. Seriously, the whole week was pure torture. Slept late woke up late. Late for school like continously till Friday...And now i'm on the 'late' list too...zzz. Must try to prevent it now.

8-12AM shopping in Marina Square. Really felt like going but gonna give it a miss for several reasons which im reluctant to type. So yup....tata to shopping today.

Nothing much to report for my absence this week so gonna end now. See ya...~

Sammie.

2006-07-16T12:44:00.000+08:00

Overview of....

D2 investiture yesterday. Apologies that i cannot make it and it was a last minute decision. Guessed dinner with mum (or rather family) came first and other things for that matter too~ Dint regret it just felt a little sorry. Afterall its the official 'passing over'. But well, things are over now.

School as hectic. Or rather..worse then before. 2 Presentations coming up. Gosh i hate them! Homeworks as usual. Late as usual. Cant understand a single thing AS USUAL. Art seminars are becoming worse. Gosh how i hate cubism and wadeva -ism. 3D art for H2. Supposed to SKETCH and MAKE small models but well, I have not thought of the idea yet. How dead can i be.

How i wished the end year hols is here. Coz argh, Meiling just had to keep on drilling the fact that promo is in WK 10. And its like after the september hols. So i CANT relax during the holidays. I just wished DECEMBER is here... Hope i survive this term in one piece!

Sammie signing off.

2006-07-13T20:24:00.000+08:00

Hell is breaking loose,
in the soul trapped in the heart.
I hate you heart you.

Boiling within me
the anger rising above
Water does not help.

One minute of love
A thousand reasons to hate
Love and hate a line

Go die go die go
Vanish and vanquish from me.
I dont wanna know.

2006-07-11T23:24:00.000+08:00

Ring a Ring a Ring
When will the bell ever ring
To mark the week's end

2006-07-08T13:47:00.000+08:00

Why doesnt anything cooperate with me...?

Gotten my long awaited fever yesterday...
Managed to survived through school but i kept falling asleep because of my hurting head.
Is it because of my contact with 4 sick people or is it because of the bowl of fried ikan billis i've ate?
BUT WHY DOES IT HAVE TO HAPPEN ON WEEK ENDS...?!

Second day of fever.
I'm prohibited to go out.
Argh i want to go eat SCONES, HAWAIIAN PIZZAS, FRUIT PLATTER!
Why must this happen on Saturdays.

Dinner for ytd : porridge with water and grass jelly.
Lunch for today: porridge AGAIN with water and barley.
Dinner for tonight: MOST PROLLY PORRIDGE AGAIN!

Seriously is the whole internet system ganging to go against me?
I want WINGLIN! I want JNBFS! I want WAW!
Those are like my life savers in days like these...
Why oh why. Must they do this to me...?
I'm being deprived of happiness.

Trapped
Sam.

2006-07-06T02:34:00.000+08:00

Its 2.31am as i typed. Should be sleeping by now but really felt the need to type this.

Its a day after PANORAMA (since im not sleeping yet).

Yesterday was simply great! The day started off slacky..Felt that it was ages since performance. Time passed like awfully slowly. But then it sped up halfway. During touching up of make up i supposed...? And soon, we're all waiting for our turn on stage.

The performance was great...! As commented by few people. I cant wait for Ms Mak to burn the cd for us...~

Went for supper in SWENSENS afterwards. Everyone felt kind of sleepy..including me. Hahas surprising. It was only 12 lahs. Went home, spend aeons cleaning up my face and taking off that damn eyeliner. Bathe and used computer for like 15mins before deciding that I cant take it anymore and need to sleep. So slept with wet wet hair at 1.30am TILL next afternoon 2.30. SHIOK. Hehehs.

However, all thats good has gotta come to an end. The seniors are gonna step down soon. So no chance of dancing with them again. Huang lao shi has not decided to stay. And J1s are left alone on our own in future. I cant help but be worried about us in future but excited of being independent at the same time. So now..all we can do is wait, wait and wait.

Investiture is coming up and our next dance will be on 19. I cant imagine doing basic techniques for 4 hours but oh well, who knows. We might end up doing other things. Cant wait for all the dance photos and videos that Ms Mak is preparing.

Once again, thanks to all performers who made the show and fellow dancers. We've made it!~

Happy Sammie.

2006-07-03T23:06:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow is THE DAY.

All those days that we have struggled, work hard and strived.

Tomorrow is the day we are going the get our results.

I hope the results pay off well.

After tomorrow, we arent gonna be on the same stage anymore.

So lets all give our best for tomorrow.

And just enjoy. SMILE.

Counting down...

Panoroma in 20hours and 13mins.

Sammie.

2006-07-02T23:19:00.000+08:00

SCOPIOns.

They desire someone who knows how they tick. Someone who can read their mind. Know their feelings.

And that is why none suits them. For till now, they are still in darkness.

Loneliness. Thats what surrounds them. They can never trust anyone.

Thats the reason why they always feel outcasted.

Those whom they trust, is their real friends.

Once betrayed, they are doomed.

But their conception of betrayal is never the same.

For those whom is the betrayer might not think what they did is wrong.

They dont know they have hurt them. In a way or another.

Never trust a person. Unable to have a best pal. Cant get what they need.

Scopions. Doomed to be alone. Forever.

SAM IS mosquito.
MIA-ing.

2006-06-26T02:00:00.000+08:00

Its late. 1.56am as i typed.
This is specially for B.A.I.
Know its weird to be reminiscing now, but i am.
Getting old i supposed.
I opened up a web and had the urge to post this.
Well yeah, its the msn groups one.
I re-read the things in it.
Really missed those times, those days.
When we were all crazy about really making a family.
Miss those days alot alot alot.
Guess its caused things changed.
Its difficult to really meet up now.
Even when we meet, its not all 4.
Even all 4, who knows what might crop up next.
Getting all-so-touchy here.
But yup, just to let you all know...
I missed the days, missed the laughter and missed the fun.
AND last but not least...
We are family. B.A.I still rawks no matter what.

***Thank god we made the web.
If you are bored, or down, or depress...
Go look at it. You will cheer up!***

I HeaRts yOu. Muacks.
Sara aka Salad. Baii.

2006-06-14T21:43:00.000+08:00

Before i had even fully immensed in HONG KONG itself to report about me being there, IM BACK.

Dance tomorrow. Rehersals. Gosh, I wish its going to be fruitful and not a total waste of time like the 1st rehersal. I'm going to make sure i bring my GREAT EX to read. Simply because, 1. I have to do a simple hw/mindmap by 16th for consultation and 2. I haven even read finish the book ONCE. Believe it or not.

Life in HK rawks no matter what i do there. Though its only a week, I enjoyed myself thoroughly. No i did not go shopping every single minute but just relaxed in the bounds of the small house. Seriously i dont mind staying at home 24/7 as long as there are plentiful of comics, dvds, internet, tv and food. And thats exactly the perfect holiday for me. AND THAT IS WHAT I DID. So yup, no souveniers or anything to bring back for anyone of you...~ Sorry. But hey, its me who you miss rite? Not the pressies. At least thats what i hoped. DONT and i mean dont tell me otherwise.

So yup. And for those out there panicking over undone homework and unstudied subjects for CCT. Heres a consolation for you. YOU are not the worse. At least there is always me lagging behind. I have not touched a single piece of work, have not even finish GE, have not started Econs and yup, needless to say, nothing have been done for CCT. So if that comforts any of you somehow, THANK ME.

===I'm just a simple little girl, wanting to live a LALA land life with no books and school and studies and exams to bother me. If i have magic powers, I would just extend the holidays till forever. IF ONLY.===

Sam

2006-06-04T17:55:00.000+08:00

COUNTING THE DAYS...

Today is 4th June.
Happy Birthday to 2 peeps.
BRYAN.
RAINIE.

I'm supposed to celebrate Bryan's bdae in Rad's hse today with the rest of the class. But my apologies for I couldnt make it.

The reason why is because I went to Junction 8 today. Woke up early. Damn tired now. Wahahas. Oh and yah...Rainie's soooo cool. Pretty and cute. AND I'm not a les not that I am bias against them. But well, girls can admire girls too. And so yups. She's cute indeed.

After what seemed like years i finally got to met her. I still remembered the first time that i was supposed to see her, 26th dec, but i missed it. Cos i wanna slp. I cant believe im so stupid to forgo a chance. Hahas. The next time when she held the autograph session, i missed it too. For wad reasons i couldnt and wouldnt remember. Thank god OR rathe Thank Rainie for having a 2nd album and coming back to SG to promote it. If not i would die thinking i have no fate to even see her.

So back to present, reached destination at almost 1pm. Her autograph starts at 3pm. Thought we would have to wait for long but surprisingly NO. She came at 1.30pm as she has an interview with 933 and its outdoor today. So had a glimpse of her. She went backstage at 2pm. And so we had to wait. And we stood up for the rest of the time. Till 4.35pm when she officially signed my cd!

The queue was quite fast. Within 20mins she had finished signing mine. However as it was slow moving, i took quite a long time staring at her when im in the front row. Pretty, kawaii, cute!!! Hehes. But, before i went to the front, when she was singing, the guy in front of me is damn tall. Block my view all the way. And then still stand on railing. Seriously, guys like him are jerks. Lucky im busy looking out for Rainie or i would curse and curse. So well, in conclusion, tall guys ,like him should be banished for autograph sessions.

Am in Sockie's house now. Supposed to come here to do hw but well, tpjc is down. What can i do? Alot of announcements and thingy are in there. And well i cant remember those hw that is not loaded in there too. So, here am i blogging away. Think im going home soon. Before 7pm i MUST reach home. hEHES. Tv time u noe. Hahahs.

So till the next time i blog again, CYA N LOVE U!~
P.S. Love Rainie forever tooooo`

Idol-ing Sam.

2006-05-30T22:25:00.000+08:00

You cant exactly call me ALIVE or even LIVELY at the present.
I'm not in a serious wreckage. Its just...I dont know.
Emotional rollercoasters i suppose.
But I'll get through it.
Somehow.

Life after CCT. ROCKS.
However, hols is never hols to start with.
Going back to school except Wed n Fri.
Not to forget the amt of dance practices.

Was supposed to enter for the fushion dance
But had to back out coz i'll be missing alot.
I'm not gonna be in the country.
Mixed emotions.
But what can i do.
I miss HK. and im not giving up my chance to get back.
Regrets.

Plans are backfiring on me.
All because of my stupidity of overlacking schedule timings.
First, MPH.
Second, RAINIE.
Damn, i was counting on both for my dear life.
It means alot.
But now. I hope it just pulls through.
And please. dun ever pull another stunt like dat.

Lastly. Hols are boring.
Simply coz im in SINGAPORE.
Its the worse place of all for a holiday.
And well, it doesnt help much that there is
NO1. No movies/ serials to borrow.
NO2. No comics to rent. Damn the place. why must it close down of all times.
NO3. Slacking mood. Dont wanna get out much.
NO4. When i wanna get out, ppl are not free. Damn their T.T.
N05. No fanfics. Why must winglin be down of all times!~
N06. The tv just sucks. Nothing nice to watch at all.
NO7. I've finished watching any possible items on youtube that interest me.
NO8. I've rewatched enough shows. Fan Li Hua as the newest on my rewatch list. And im considering MG as i typed.
The list can just continue.
And well, actually there is another thing i can do.
HOMEWORKS. AND MY 2 LIT BKS THAT I HAVEN COMPLETED AT ALL.
But well...I doubt i have the mood for that.
So it'll be on hold till who knows when.

And the above is the summary of the dull life of SAMANTHA.
How pathetic can it be.
I miss HK. HK. HK.

Sam

2006-05-16T22:11:00.000+08:00

I AM BACK. SAM IS BACK. FINALLY.

Damn. I'm exhausted. Dint blog for long. 10 days in exact.
Why? Dont ask me...Different reasons.
So what happened during this period of time?
PLENTY.
But i have no strength to remember all those.
Thus i shall not talk about it.

I only know that my CCT is NEXT WEEK.
Can you believe how fast is next week?!
Cause i cant.
OMG. I will be dead AGAIN!
Once again, i'm resorting to last minute studying.
Something that i have wanted to stopped since sec wadever~

Have to hand up art coursework by FRIDAY.
However, bless me.
I have not even thought of the exact layout etc etc etc.
I shall go die soon.

I'm tired tired tired. Exhausted exhausted exhausted.
I just want a break. An actual break without school for a month.
I think i shall go die now.

Sam is DEAD.
Dont bother looking for her. As if anyone will look.

2006-05-06T21:16:00.000+08:00

I think i'm dying of boredom, exhaustion and heat!

No more fanfic to read..COme on..Update please!!!

Woken up at 10 by thunderous noise and loud shrieking crys.

And damn, its raining for gods sake. Why am i boiling?!

Sammie is dying. SOON.

2006-05-06T00:14:00.000+08:00

OMG. This is the first time I'm admitting I miss the good'o days. {I think?}

Went out with papa half way when the class at BK. Ate sushi....Finally after several days of cravings. Then went home and change while waiting for sockie to finish her classes. So yup...dilly dally. I ADMIT I VERY SLOW IN CHOOSING CLOTHES LAHS!

Met for M.I:3. Damn i think its a cool show. Nice stunts. Although the plot is kinda simple~ After that played in the arcade (which i wouldnt want if i hadnt promised earlier on...) Had a sudden desire to go kbox-ing. Thats what we think of when we 3 are together. Hahahs. But then sad. Can only sing 3 hours and its 18.90+++. Do you know how EX is it. And the time span is sooooo short. Not thrilling!~

Ended up in MAC anyway. [Damn im eating all the stuffs that im not even supposed to be touching] Talked like there is no tomorrow. I wish i could continue just blabbering away now, but its just different. I'm losing myself in school. Why? I dont know. So yup, then papa's call came so must go home. Arrived at 11.40. And there i go...type type type.

Oh another reason WHY i missed the days. Sophia sms-ed me this evening. Told me the msg is just to say how much she missed the times and how we drawed during lessons. OMG! SO SWEET...Hahahs I miss her too! And i really think her stick figures are damn cool~ Never will forget the 'proposing under sunset' picture. Hehes.

Ok. Shall stop here.

Reminiscing old times.

Sam.

2006-05-04T16:23:00.000+08:00

When i dont talk, it doesnt mean I dont care.
When i dont say, it doesnt mean I dont feel it.
=============================================

Pride.
Thats what i have.
It makes me lose out.
In everything.
BUT.
No there shouldnt be a BUT.
BUT.
I just cant throw it away.
Its part of me.
===========================================

Everything is not as simple as it looks. Or what it says.
You make it sound so simple. But no. IT ISNT.
==========================================

There are more of such things i've thought about this whole week.
But...i shall not post more.
Coz i dont wanna remember and cant remember most.

Emo-ing Sam.

2006-04-30T21:51:00.000+08:00

OMG cant believe the week has finally officially ended! But hey...bad news for myself. Homework none done. Woah. Lets see my list of work.
1. 2 chinese comprehension
2. GP reading log
3. Lit journal
4. Econs project
5. GPP
6.MUST read FINISH GE and HMT.
and well...the list just gets longer.....

Runway turned out quite smoothly other then a little technical errors, some miscommunications and well, sudden errors. Overall not bad i hope? Heard its was 85% full. Wonder if there will be another one next year? Oh but then i guess its cause of the air con, kinda hot and stuffy, so was feeling highly irritated after the runway. Was cursing and bitching all the way to TMALL for dinner.

And yep, 2 days of dance over. I seriously am putting in effort! But then, what can i do if i am a slow learner?!

Went back to ESSS speech day. Realised they only called me back. Thought they would at least call jasmine but apparently no. So yup, only one wearing TPJC uni, kinda weird. And i took 2 prizes. HAHA. $500 mph vouchers. Seriously i doubt i would need that much! But im determined to spend it this year. Realised that over the years, all my vouchers expired with me not spending them at all. Should frame them up! Overall the school spend more on speech day i suppose. They changed to glass window panels but seriously, they should just install air con. They changed the fan too. To something worse then before. No wind at all! Somemore i wearing blazer. Gonna boil! Anyway, i hope the school does consider installing air cons for impt events like such. I mean, you see the parents come in and fan themself throughout. Unsightly and pathetic. Anyway, the concert was also great. There is circus acts by juniors this year. And im impressed by choir. They seriously do better without us. Small but loud. Good for them. Reception was held in foyer. Everyone ended up eating whether you are supposed to or not. The food was not bad...! For once. Hahas. Then Ms Wong sent me home. With Benson Tay and Ms Teh.. Opps its MDM Teh now. First time see them hold hands hahas. Married also no inform us! Bad ppl! LOls.

OH YA! After saying i took art, Benson asked if Mr Daniel Kok is my teacher. IN the end, realised they are JC mates. Wahahas. Talk about coincidences. So he asked me send his regards. And i will provided i remember~

Emo-ing period still. I realised i have nothing much to talk about, or rather, dont wish to communicate with ppl that are once close to me. Is it because i dont wanna hang on to the past? Or because i cant bear to see the ppl once close have now become distant so i rather walk away first? Either or i dont know. Seriously, no one can ever accompany me through a phrase of life and remain with me throughout. I have come to a realisation that i might be a loner and always will be. Maybe its my character. Maybe its because i cant communicate well. Maybe its because of my farcade. Maybe its just that i dont have 'ren yuan'. Maybes. I dont know what will become of me 10 years down the road. Will there even be friends by my side? I will never know till then.'

SAM IS DEAD.

2006-04-25T21:34:00.000+08:00

Long since my last update. Hectic week. Overly exhausted. Believe me. Last week was overly loaded with activities...Carnivals, dance practice, outings, preparation for tests. Damn was i tired.However, its a fulfilling week. Fun packed with stressed and emo periods. Denial towards things. Realisation dawned. Yuppie, i am getting on with it.

Oh and im so broke! Imagine bowling for 3 consecutive days. Damn.My muscles were aching. And to think before that, i had to carry parts of drumset for TPJC Runway! I know some might think its light but damn, it isnt to me. Lucky for now, my arms recovered. But then...there is always thurs and fri! Oh back to the pt, since i went bowling for 3 days, i went out expectedly. And how can i not spend any money?! And cabbing is a must. Oh ya, plus ytd, went to eat sushi, big big hole. And just now, i went for a mini food journey too and cabbing too! BIG BIG HOLE IN MY POCKET!

Oh and to show how tired i am, imagine falling aslp while watching tv or using internet. Yup thats how tired i was. To think my hair wasnt even dry. Im not going to forgive myself if i have headaches! And big damnation, I have like tests each day other then thurs! Maths and art is coming up. The 2 lit was a little disastrous esp TODAY! Oh and econs project has been extended. Yippees! However, i dont even noe if i can get it done by then. So bless me! Anyway HMT test next mon. Haven started reading. This sucks.

This week is yet another dreary week. Everyday going home late. Sick. Today was like the earliest day i cna get home. 4.10pm. And the latest...9 plus. TPJC Runway. And theres speech day and dance on SUN again. I SERIOUSLY WANNA SLP. THank god mon is off day!!! Looking forward to it. ;)

Emo-ing period recently just not that serious. Stressed up too. Keep looking to food therapy. Hope everything goes smoothly. Not much time to update. So yup, stay on. God bless. Cya.

I just wanna slp oh-so-badly. For as long as i wish.
tired tired tired tired tired SAM.

2006-04-20T22:15:00.000+08:00

This week is dreary.
I'm dying- a slow death.
Nothing for me to look forward to
No saturdays, not even sundays.
Whats with the 5 day week when i go to school every single day.

I miss home.
I spend more time outside then in my room.
I miss lazing around
till I am willing to get up
I wanna sleep oh-so-badly.

Going for play tomos, carnival sat, dance sun.
Bowling awaits me too.
No money no strength not enough sleep
The only thing that keeps me going is the hope for laughter
In search of laughs, fun and feeling accepted.

I wish holidays are here. Even one day that i could sleep till the sun sets , I will be happy.
I need sleep oh-s0-badly!~

P.S. I love to smile and laugh and daze and stare. So what.

Sleepy Sam

2006-04-18T20:00:00.000+08:00

Know the PW grp today. No comments about it. Just hope everything turns out fine. I seriously think that i should not think negative. For when i think negative, it would definetly come true. Bad feeling, wu ya zui you can call.

No progress towards every other things. No time. Or i'm still making excuses? I dont know. Anyway, my p.i idea is feasible but have to reedit alittle still. Well at least there is progress. Hope things get better!!

Since you met face to face, dont ever escape it.
This is the time for things to either get better or screw up more.
*Bad translation from chi. Sucks but cant read chi in the blog*

Love Sam.

2006-04-17T23:17:00.000+08:00

Seriously i think i should just be killed for my laziness. Wahahas. Just had a BIG realisation on what a slacker i am. While everyone is mugging and revising, what am i doing? MG-ing. AGAIN. Darn, I must be shot. Therefore today, i've just decided that i'll start studying too. But at this hour, what have i achieved? Nothing. I dint even start on Great Expectations todaY! Seriously, someone just kill me. So yup. My proposal. I should go library everyday after school till school closes to study. I cant concentrate at home. Any takers? Be a kind soul and accompany/ force me to study. Hahas.

Dint really wanna update so much today but my mood just got better. Credits to SOCKIE. MEIX!Wahahs. Sock! Love you! Lols. You really make my day(night actually) better! Now i can get a somehow good slp without condemning myself. Although a part of me still in denial stage but yup. Overall im feeling so much better! You deserve a kiss. MUACKS! And a hug!~ lOLs.

Tomorrow is a fresh day! Gonna start afrest. I hope. And shucks. Just being reminded of that darn GP essay, the haven started artwork (everyone is nearly done or done) , the Sg poetry, the sucky compre and the P.I. Yup to add on is the Great expectations and Atwood that i'm lagging behind so badly. Oh not to forget my haven started ECONS. Damn am i dead. Hope everything turns out fine~ ITs fine mind you. As long as its not bad, i dont mind it being just fine.

Oh P.S. I miss B.A.I~ Pls go out to lame one day. Oma!!! Waiting for you!~ And yup kisses to all of you. SOCK tag soon! If not i gonna flood u~ Hahas.

Half Sam

2006-04-16T20:23:00.000+08:00

THANK GOD I CAN USE MY INTERNET AGAIN!Damn the router that caused this prob. I hate the router! Just when i have fri off too...THis happened! Make my weekend damn useless.

Ok, so yup now SAM is BACK. Hahahs.

And i really think im in a state of confusion now. What i think what i do all has mixed emotions and feelings. Talk about complications. And damn. I feel empty, hollow and all that crap.

What in the world do i deserved this? Maybe its fate that im born like this. Born to have a face a personality that everyone dislikes. Seriously, people just hates me. I hate myself too. That must be the reason why.

Hell i know my work is piling up. I have uncompleted PI, econs project, 2 bks to read and all other craps. But why do i feel that i have done nothing at all. I'm a useless leader seriously. I cant do anything. Damn i hate myself more. I feel the pressure and stress coming up but im not doing anything about it. Why is that so? Is it because of my attitude. Maybe this is the reason why. Maybe its coz im lazy. Whatever. I am concerned. I wanna care about my work but my brain just dont allow me to do so. Talk about it. Sucks.

Actually come to think of it. I'm losing myself. Succumb to being not me. I hate myself. I should be glad to finally destroy myself. But why can i always feel my heart cry out and the tear that stings my eyes every minute i changed. Do i want to be me or not. I dont know. Am i already being buried whole and alive. Or have i been dead all these while? Am i dead?

This post is incoherent and is just another of my blabberings. I seriously dont know if im making sense. But its ok. I never ever make sense. Everything that i say is just crap that dont weight and affect anything but myself.

Samantha

2006-04-11T20:00:00.000+08:00

MUNDANE Life Sucks.
I wish there is more to my life...

2006-04-09T19:45:00.000+08:00

Finally decided to update. So well yup, was late for D-square 'meeting' aka interaction time. Sincere apologies. Hahas. Shall not say why. So ya. After that went for lunch and saw dance performance in Jubilee Hall. NICE! It rawks. However, sadly, I dint really pay my utmost attention to it coz kinda side tracked and trying hard to stay awake. After all, I did mentioned that I'm DEAD tired right? So anyway after that met Lao pa and meix. Ate. Kboxed. Home. Seriously 3 hours of kboxing is just NEVER EVER enough. However i have no more money to spare. And ya. Why dont they have F4 songs!!! Damn unfair. Oh. I'm officially broke. Have to find time to deposit some money into the bank. I took out quite alot.

Yippe. Finished PI. Dont know if i should rejoice anot...? Happy to finish it but then kinda worried coz i think its alittle out of point. So ya..Shall just wait till teacher gives me back the first draft. Later have to study for econs...? Did kinda badly for the previous group work thingy. Have to buck up i supposed...! PLease give me strength!~

A small treat for all.

You and I.
How did we come to this.
Once a talk over the night,
now what is left is silence.
Arguments all day.
The frustrations and irritations.
Then silence.
Introvert. Silence. Laughter. Silence.
What u see is not what you see.
Who i am is not who i am.
Broken. Silence. Sobs. Silence.
I am not who i am.
Anymore.
Silence.

Signing off.
Sam

2006-04-07T23:42:00.000+08:00

DAMN DAMN DAMN. Said it like a dozen times today. I really really really cant control it! Oh ya...I'm officially broke. As in no more money anymore! Imagine, I've been late consecutive 3 days! First 6.55 den 7.10 den 7.05. I mean what the heck, how come the alarms arent working on me anymore!? Keep cabbing. Damn broke. 4-5 dollars every morning lahs. Sad case. Thank god i'm not late for school yet. So sorry Renee. Hahas. Keep making her wait. Seems like she become my alarm clock every morning. If not for her calls n smses, i think i still in my dreamland lahs. MAKE A WISH...

Ok. So yup. Preety exhausted this wk. No idea why though. Maybe cause i didnt nap? So ya..as i blogging now, my eyes are practically closing. Brain cells also kinda retarded. As if dying soon~ So yup...Mundane school life. Getting hectic. Homework is snowballing. Projects too. But well, yup. Haven done any... If not also not call snowballing rite! So god bless. And ya..PI! Have to hand in on Mon but i haven started. Still pondering over whether i have the strength to actually start now. Cause i have no other times other then on Sunday. Which im afraid i have to do other stuffs too. Hmm... Think Think Think.

Oooh ya... Went to orchard with Mei just now. Lesson takeaway: Mei takes around 5-7 mins to try a shirt out. Mental note. *Next time while shopping with her, take double the amount of clothes in her hands to try. Then maybe we'll try finish at the same time.* Coz i waited like sooooo long. Eternity. For her to come out. Thought she fainted in there or what. Somemore make me stroll the shops till i can memorise where to put the clothes already! Lols. And FYI. I spent 30 on food. 20 on cabbing. How can i not be broke! And ya..I'm think i am a glutton in my past life.

MEE SUA--> One slice of KAYA TOAST --> FLOSS CREPE --> BROWNIE -->HOT DOG... Cant rem if i ate anything else but yup..thats basically all i remember. Actually now typing out, I dont think i really eat that much lahs. Hahas not that pig yet~

So tomorrow. Sat. Thought i could slp in lahs! But then got what chi dance n drama interaction. Have to wake up early. Hope i will not be late lohs. ZZZZ Damn tired. After that gonna watch dance performance. Kinda excited. Then yup KBOXING!!! Hope it rawks. Been waiting for that quite long already. And ya...I kind of promised myself that tomorrow is the last day i'll splurge and take out money from atm already.

Tata for now. Decided not to do PI. Leave it to sunday. I'm seriously dying. Nites. Ciao
Sleepy Sam.

2006-04-04T21:09:00.000+08:00

Damn lahs...I hate today. It completely sucks. First i woke up late- 6.55 to be exact. Mad rush!~ Then stupid bus was full, have to cabbed. See MeiLing, I'm broke too! Then well, basically, econs was boring. And well recess was the start of the blood boiling incident!

You see, if you even want to cut the queue or help people buy their food, can you like get the amount of money to pay and what you actually ordered right?! You dont spend eternity there keep ordering and then argue with the auntie if you paid the correct amount and all that crap! There is people behind you if you ever used your eyes to see and your brain to think! Damn those people. At least when i cut queue to buy uniforms, i did it in less than a minute! Stupid sickening piece of shit!

After being damn pissed off, a bloody b*****d make it worse! Damn. When you see a bag on a chair, YOU ARE SUPPOSED TO KNOW THAT ITS BEING OCCUPIED! Thats what putting bags are there for damnit. Why would people leave their bags there to reserve space if everyone follows him and just start stacking one bag on top of another and sit on the empty space! Use some common sense you idiot! Oh. Sorry, you are an idiot. I doubt you have common sense. Well yup, but ya...Thanks soh for offering her seat anyway.

Ok, i know I'm rude and damn petty but what do you expect! Angry people dont care. And i just need a place to vent out. Hahas. Anyway, after recess, pretty bad mood. Couldnt concentrate during lit and was totally lost. Damn. I might just flunk it lahs. I seriously think that a small class is better. I miss those days where there are lesser people. And yup, I miss HuiQi too. Badly.

Ok. Then things got better coz its not a whole big class. Well, went out for bubble tea thingy and its like mini class gathering with few people missing. But actually i prefer that amount of people. Seriously im not a people person and i really hate many many many peeps ard. And yup. Chi was ok. GP was ok too.

GP. Were supposed to do a grp presentation on a topic. Dint find much so ended up browsing Uni of Mel booklet. Im interested in a few courses at the moment. Hope i can get in. I seriously doubt if i'll flunk my Alevel lahs. So yup. Kinda hope to faster get to uni. And live in hostel and everything. If i dont change any plans anymore.

Realised that my teachers were all not bad. Mr Lim is actually quite good though he can never control a class and Ms Tan was more concerned about our class than I thought a new teacher would be. Ms Kon is getting fiercer and agitated to a certain extend. Cant blame her. And well, Im still totally lost and sleepy during Maths and Lee's class. ZZZ.

Mixed emotions. [Sorry for long post]
Sam.

2006-04-03T13:27:00.000+08:00

The time now is 1.28pm. Wahahas. Yawns cant wait to get home. Now sitting in the library ALONE waiting for YanLing and JianHong to be released from hist so we can go find teacher for econs project. Siansation. Tot i have art while waiting for them but damn. I forget its 12.50. U can leave school so who will go do art now. So yup, i end up sitting here blogging. Kill my boredom. Thank god there is such things as computer and library in school. If not i will most probably be seen as a loner in any benches. How pathetic. Hahas. So yup, waiting for yanling to sms me...Hurry!

Lessons was boring since chi. Sians. Although i have to give credit to MR WONG as he talks about topics that to a certain extend im interested in. Just that well, the drowsy bug is still hitting on me. So till the end, i nearly died there trying to stay awake. Then comes GP. What can i say. Boredom and nothing less. Luckily I'm talking to Yanling and it helped me stay awake and kill time. So GP kinda pass quickly! Thank god! Oh ya...and for once I must give GP crediit again. Because just now i had this sudden random inspiration for a topic for TRADITION. My badly worried PW. I hope this works out. Gonna go home to think about my 'inspiration' later. So now i have to worry about 'MOMENTUM'. But well, at least i got started somehow.

Now is 1.34! Damn are they slow. Wahahs. Seriously, if not for the constant postponing of econs project meet up dates since last wk, i would not have stayed today. So yup...Tata for now. Hope i have more energy for tomoz! Amen.

She called!
Sam

2006-04-02T23:43:00.000+08:00

FRIDAY is a good day. Other then it rained! Hahas.. Went to watch musical wif MEI etc...By temasek sec. Not bad. Love the songs. However i must say.. the plot is not one that i would choose to watch if i werent ask to go. Firstly, i dont like plots that have 'war', secondly, its about brothers, thirdly... urm. I just dont watch those gendre. Anyway, I wish ESSS had something like that too... Just that the school has nothing to offer other than the pathetic SPARKS that is held in our school hall when i was Sec 2. However SPARKS was fun too. At least it is something that I can say i enjoyed in the years there. I pity those that werent with us during the period and had to suffer with the fact that there is no other performances held for the school. Pathetic is all i can say.

Well, the musical was at KALLANG THEATRE. After that, we walked for.... eternity. Just to find KFC. I bet i couldnt survived anymore. But that was when our saviour appeared! Hahas. For once, I love you MEI. Coz u have a great junior that can send us there! Lols. So we settled in KFC, chatted and damn was i sleepy. Laughed very hard but eyes was struggling to open very hard too. In the end, i cabbed back of coz. And i knocked off almost immediately!~ Wonderful day peeps! I enjoyed myself! Even the walk and the rain was fun! To a pt.

Went to Dance then eat then movie. Watched Fragile. I rate it 2.5. Seriously its supposed to be about ghost! The fear factor rate wasnt there. It just has the typical scary sound and suspense. And damn, i thought it was supposed to be a ghost. In the end. What do i get but a freak that look not human not ghost. So well, dont waste your money. OH YA. And i seriously wanna watch FAILURE TO LAUNCH! Acutally i will watch any rom com if there is others now. But unfortunely no..Sad case... I need a LAUGH! Like HAHAHAHA.

Damn I'm disappointed in myself. Supposed to use today to clear up homeworks. In the end. I only finished GP in a haste. And pw. S*** S*** S***! I'm so frustrated with my brain. Supposed to do a mindmap for the 2 topics and hand it up so that i can have constructive suggestions on Tues. But look what time is it. I haven started anything. No idea no plan Not even a single word popped up. I'm worried for myself. I hate myself whenever my brain is dead. I hate people out there for not helping me. I hate those who even planned to have this exam topic. Damn Man hater.

Ok, after that burst out. I'm calmer now. Although sadly i still cant think of anything. Recently, felt very empty. unexplainable feeling. Then i began thinking again. And I'm stuck with the same old question haunting me for the past few years. Do i even have friends? Am i considered a care-leh-feh that is not needed in anywhere? Am i just living in my own deserted world where no one wants me. And then i start feeling oh so badly depressed. Damn emo..Hate those feelings. But forget it. I'm not gonna bother much about it again like before. If they dont want me, I dont want them either. I dont mind being alone. Felt that im alone all the while. What difference does it make.

So well ya..I'll end here. AND DAMn...ZHIYANG won. Unexpected. Speechless. Forget it. It does not affect me. Ta Ta. And hope i will have this sudden inspiration for PW by tuesday.

Sammie

2006-03-29T20:32:00.000+08:00

Below is the quiz results I tooked in a webby... I got the web while scanning through Raj's blogg. I seriously love taking this kinda quiz. Think its more then 90% accurate.. Cool stuffs ;) Look through the quiz and you'll know MOST of me...

Description: Your inner soul is saying SCREW YOU! For some reason you gave up caring about things. You use to be warm and loving, but now you've started crusting over to a cold, hardcore bitch who doesn't take crap from anybody! Even though you try not to show emotions, you desperately want to let loose and go wild! You have an attitude that makes you irresistible to others and you are the one usually to take charge of situations. Deep down inside, though you repel people, all you want is that someone who will understand and wont turn away/ignore you like everyone else does. You want to be able to reach out and love them, but, you just cant for some reason You have created an icy barrier that shields you from reality, from what you don't want to believe. No one seems to understand you; not many can see past that barrier and see you, a hurt person just yearning to be able to embrace another or fit in! You tend to shy away from things; rejecting events/people bitterly and mouthing off anything that lurks in your mind at the time. You also tend to use humor or physical contact as a defense mechanism to protect anyone from seeing your pain. You convince yourself you're not afraid of anything or anyone, but in reality you're so insecure! All you want is someone to finally understand, see past that ice and hopefully even melt the shield. You just want comfort, you want that genuine someone! A person who likes you for you and understands what you've gone through or are going through. Underneath that cold exterior lies a warm, happy soul that wants to let loose and have fun! Your sanctuary would probably be any damn place you feel like being at! You can remain the same, but until you actually let your guard for once, youll never see what lives beyond the lies. Even if letting people in will cause some distress and pain, its all worth it in the end. At least youll know youre living a real life
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Quote: The walls we build around us to keep out the sadness, also keeps out the joy(Jim Rohn)
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Poem Verse:
No where to run, Never a place to hide, I stand there alone, always alone, Not a soul in sight, not one ever by my side(DieColdHearted)
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Symbol: Ice (cold, and can be bitter at times)
+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+

I just love this kind of quiz..! So true at times..Anyway, if anyone has webs for such things, tell me!! IM INTERESTED..!

Amused Sam

2006-03-28T22:56:00.000+08:00

Yawns..Tired and hungry as im writing this post. Well what to say, I did good for econs test coz it turns out to be kinda easy. Not as in real exams question types. Just fill in blanks and mcq. Wished exams was like that. Then i wouldnt really neeed to be stressed up. However, that quiz dont mean anything! Coz im just as lost. Skipped one econs lesson today for art, and when i tried the supply qns just now, i have no idea what im doing. And i also dunno where i dunno as usual. Oh ya.and the elasticity lecture. I have no idea what went on? No CONNECTION to whatever we doing..thats what i feel...

Ok whatever. I need big time help in maths..! Dont know how to do tutorials! And damn...I took 1/2 hour to find the 'pi' sign. Blind eyes...tired perharps? Oh ya..lit today was kinda torturous for me todae. Grp discussion as always but I'm like totally silent today. Not as if it will make any diff...? Coz i seldom talk much too...So anywae, didnt make any points during discussion. No 1. I cant think. No 2. My mind is blank. No 3. I just wanna sleep oh so badly...!

Well...nothing much except thinking should i go for musical this fri wif mei or go kbox wif papa n sock. ZZZ.. Broke man.. Damn. Or maybe i should just stay home and slp!~

Oh ya..1 point of realisation recently. I cursed too much...Every 2-3 lines i will add in a DAMN or DAMNATION. God, where did i learn it from...I dont like it as a habit..It sounds awful and crude. Im trying to kick it...HELP ME!!

**Suddenly i decided to change the topic to something that is not THAT complaining and whiny* Yuppie, ytd went to watch V FOR VENDETTA. Gosh its quite a nice movie. Personally although that mask is kinda creepy at quick glance, i kinda like it at the end. And V, what can i say...I think he is a handsome and witty person that is humourous and dashing! PRINCE CHARMING! Of coz thats if he acutally has an intact face? But well, the way he talks and his actions--all of a true gentleman! Hahs. Not that i want someone like him though. Coz he layed his life for revenge. I hate revenge. Ok that was partially true. Some should deserve to be punished. But damn he shd not die! I love happily ever afters ever though i KNOW its not possible!~ Anyway kinda expected ending though...And a little too much thinking must be done so not exactly a light hearted block buster.

Oh ya...Wanted to continue watching FAILURE TO LAUNCH after V but decided not cause its already 9pm. Damn if there was no school, i could have watch it. Thats another reason why i prefer POLY~ Anyway hope i'll manage to watch it some day..Although i dunno what izzit about, i figure it should be kind of funny. Im just in the mood for romance comedies! Lols...

Signing off here
Hungry and dead tired Sam!

2006-03-26T23:33:00.000+08:00

One week {nearly} has past since i posted. Well what can i say, I'm a busy person. Hahas. Just kidding. I cant really remember why didnt i post but i guess there is nothing much to say?

Well, now I'm freaking out because I have an econs quiz tomorrow. I know its just 10 mins but freak, I really dont think i understand much of it. The problem is, I dun even noe what dont i dont understand. Thus I cant even ask questions? Oh god. Bless me for tomorrow.

One major thing happening i felt in me. I dont think i make sense but whatever. Its just that last week when i heard of the common test time =which by the way is in week 10 i believe=, i freak out. Seriously, i wasnt even nervous last year even though it was my o years. I bet i dint even feel this way when the O's are coming. WHAT ON EARTH IS HAPPENING TO ME. WHERE'S THE EXAM FEARLESS SAM?! God. I hate me when i'm freaking out. But who wouldnt. Come on, the test is coming soon but what have i learnt this 3 mths...? nothing! I dont even noe demand and supply for tomoz quiz duhx! Oh shit..I dont wanna think no more.

Well...over the weekend. I tell you, its the best for the whole year i believe. Other then today. Coz its sunday. What happened? Well, its for me to know and for you never to find out! Lols... COZ I CANT HELP FALLING IN LOVE WITH YOU...! [Big time clue]

Anyway i realised i have a list of awaiting...
1. 21st April. I think?
2.Bai se ju da! Faster sha qing ba!!!
3.Silence
4.cds..!
5. Hols.
6.Money
7. After A's --thats abit too far off...lols

Damn, that tune is just hogging my brain. Its a nice song but i hate it when i cant rem the lyrics! OR rather i dunno the lyrics and even the title of the song. Thats why i need the cd/vcD!!! AWAITING!! Hurry come out!

Oh ya, and i realised i've spent alot of money so far. Damn. And im gonna continue spending it even if i dont want to. Shit. PE TOMOZ. SHit shit. oK that was random. It came from no where. Hahas.

Signing off gonna mug econs and try to understand..{as if i can read for more den 15mins}

Sammie luv you you and you! Muacks

2006-03-20T19:16:00.000+08:00

Monday. What a way to start a day. Got sore throat the whole night and i woke up kinda frequently because of the discomfort in my throat. So basically...the day started on the wrong track. Went to school, met new classmates. Damn many people.. 25 in a class. Too big actually i thought. But no choice. So HEY WELCOME TO 06AO5! Hahas... Miss Young still not back. MIA in process. Sad. But having Ms Kon is not bad either...!

During History, took the time to change subject combi. From His to Art. Lets hope i love it there...and can finally draw some proper thing? Went home not long after. OH YA. To add on to a bad start of the day, i kept sneezing and having block and running nose since econs! Which is like 2nd period. And it has not stopped till now as im typing here.

Took medicine and slept. But idiot throat. Cant sleep properly. Woke up every one hour as i choke myself. Finally at 5, couldnt bear any longer so went to eat porridge.. YUMMY! Thank god i still have my appetite {although without it i might slim down} and ate a whole big plate of it. I cant imagine myself swallowing rice seriously! Wait till it gets worse. Wow.

Oh ya! And why do people always call me when I'm in need of sleep and not when i have plenty of time. During my nap, 3 people called 1 msged. Out of the 3 i rejected 2. Or rather, i silenced it. So i have no idea who the heck that was. But seriously, if i answered, that fella could have just died. The other i finally answered which i wish i hadnt. From ESSS again..asking me when am i free to get back to ES. She asked me thurs and i told her im not sure.. Mumbled something i cant remember and told her i'll confirm with her tomorrow. Why did i have to add that! I dont even know when would i be free.. Shit!

Just had a hot bathe and thought i would feel better. But wrong. I was like gonna sleep anytime soon and when i came out, DAMN it was hot and humid. Yucks.

Ok i feel drowsiness again. I hate the medicine that seriously took no effect other then to make me hope it helps. Signing off here.

Dying Sam

2006-03-17T21:39:00.000+08:00

Its Friday. Monday is coming soon. I wish time would freeze now. But its not possible. Time wouldnt stop. No matter what.

This sucks. Not enough time for anything. Shopping needs mood. Seriously. And presently, i'm missing it. Therefore, I apologise if i can't get anything for you as promised. Sincerely, I'm sorry.

I miss bed time. I do. But i'm lacking sleep. Why? I dont know. Maybe its the bed. Maybe its the noise. Maybe its just me. I dont wanna sleep. I dont wanna miss a single damn minute. But what can i do. Nothing. Time is slipping through my fingers. I cant grasp a single bit of it.

Sitting in front of the computer now. I'm giving up. Letting time do its job. I cant control it no matter what. I surrender to you.

I'm crapping off here.
Sam

2006-03-16T00:26:00.000+08:00

Wheet...~ Officially landed in HK at 10 pm. Reached home at 11pm. Then supper time! Damn exhausted..Eyes closing. GOnna finish this post, watch finish a series of serial show before finally turning in.

Was released few minutes later then 5pm today. Rushed out. Cant get a cab for 10 mins..! Freaked me out. Luckily a cab finally appeared and save my life. Reached the airport in less then 10 mins. I dint know it takes so fast to arrive there? Haha.. Anyway the fare is 6.30~ AH MA!!! AND U SAID 6 DOLLARS IS MORE THEN ENUFF?! Thank god i got coins. Hahahs.

Well dance today. Thought i would complain more but i guess i cant say anything much. It is not as tough as Monday. Maybe its because I'm more used to it now or maybe the pain in my thighs from before had way overtaken today's pain. Or well, simply because today we are able to slack more? Hahahs.

Today is a BAD DAY for walking down staircase. First time in my life i would rather go against gravity! I really feel like rolling off the steps especially walking down the steps to the hall! Why must the hall be in the 'basement'! Well, in any case, I've survived all that torture. Now lets just hope this pain would die down asap! Its really inconvinient and ugly to walk in a manner like what i'm doing now.

What am i gonna do tomoz...I dont know? Hahas. But i'll go shopping soon enuff i believe. And Mei, I've asked and there is no fake Lecoq sportif bag so i will hunt for the original and hope its cheap. If not then...I'm sorry. Cant do nothing.

Ok ending here. Have fun all.. I bet i'm gonna enjoy my stay in HK. For one simple fact, I LOVE HK! Hahas... Tok to ya soon! ;)

Sam

2006-03-14T19:49:00.000+08:00

Finally felt holiday mood. Slept till 2 plus. How shiok! Haha... Actually there is nothing to laugh about. My thigh muscles hurt as if there was no tomorrow. Its like the worse pain i've ever had? Even running doesnt cause this amount of pain that has been inflicted on me. My muscles are like pulling and i cant stand straight. And i'm walking the speed of a tortoise. I took 1 full min just to walk to my kitchen for a drink. Believe me. I feel handicap.

Well to make things worse, I'm horridly reminded of yet another practice tomorrow. From 8-5 mind you. The issue of me being able to get there is one issue and me being able to dance or remember the steps are another BIG problem weighing on me. Only one thing that can comfort me is that i can finally get on a fully HOLIDAY MOMENT as soon as i get on board the aeroplane.

Hope my muscles would not "cannot tahan then form obvious veins then later burst then veins haywire spurt blood all over room then later must amputate". HOW FD LIKE. Thanks to MEILING~

My next post will be tomorrow or maybe day after. Continue to listen to more mourningS!

Sammie

2006-03-13T22:40:00.000+08:00

Monday. First day of Holiday. In school. Pathetic. Chinese dance. 8am-5pm. It hurts.

Lots of ballet basic movements. I dint know jumping at first position, 'pilays' was that hard. How come i did so well in Pri Sch? Break times in between. Thank god. Thighs and heels hurt badly.

Then came the actual steps. That sucks. Or rather i suck. I learn slow. Cant rem steps. Till the end when i have to repeat everything, i just blanked out. Imagine everyone dance and i stop there. Felt teacher's hot stare at me, scared the freak out of me. Finally home time. By then, i cant walk steadily. Legs wobbly.

Wed. Next practice. My whole leg seems to be in a bad state now. I cant remember all the moves. I'm gonna just die on that day. Want a romantic and cute funeral! Hahas. Have to rush down to airport after that. Hope they release early or punctually.

Overall, not a bad session. Just have to blame myself for no talent, being a slow learner and have bad memory. Please help me out whenever possible, whoever out there...! And bless me for next lesson.

Tomorrow. Sleep in i suppose. Borrowed few comics to read. No strength to walk. Cya soon.

Sammie

2006-03-12T23:34:00.000+08:00

Sunday...Boring day. So many people everywhere. Bugis, mrt, bus, streets...Just hate crowds. Makes me kinda sick in the head in my stomach, everywhere. Anyway checked out ICON in North Bridge Road. Boring place. Nothing much to look at. Cannot be compared to HK. OH FREAK, I MISS HONG KONG!!Anyway, just chilled in Bugis. Walk around, trying to look for some new fashion. Well, no hopes in me to find anything. As expected, nothing new. Everything looks boring in Singapore. I hate the fashion here. Nothing special and damn EX!

Well, dint buy anything BUT just eat and eat and eat. Felt so damn thirsty today. MAYBE its the weather? Or it might just be psychological effect of WHO- KNOWS- WHAT? One thing that made my day though was the manicure i made. For once i dint do nail arts. I just lost trust in the ppl making them after a couple of failed attempts in various stores. So i just did a normal 2 colour one that overlaps diagonally. HOT PINK N BLACK. For 15 dollars. Cool hehx. Haha... Now i wonder why did i ever want to enter a JC when i can do manicures every week in a poly? Too late to regret now i suppose.

ARGH.Wanna add another close up but it just dont seems to allow it to be uploaded. I give up!

After that took mrt back home. Cheryl joined me. Gave her some earrings. YEAH! I finally cleared some earrings in the box! I just cant bear to let it R.I.P before even been used. Anyway ate dinner together etc etc. She went home about 10.35pm.

Thankx cher for accompanying me today. Although Bugis IS indeed a boring place. ZZZ.

Tomorrow, skipped maths make up lecture for chinese dance. Half excited, half scared, half everything. Mixed feelings. Well just hope I'll enjoy tomoz anyway. Tell ya about how im gonna die and cry of pain tomoz..! Haha..Tata for now...;)

Love ya,
Sammie

2006-03-11T20:52:00.000+08:00

Waiting.

Waiting for class postings, for school to start, for life to begin.

Waiting for tomorrow, for hanging out, for life to begin.

Waiting for Wednesday, for holidays, for life to begin.

Waiting for me myself and I.

Waiting for you.

Waiting for my life to begin again.

2006-03-10T22:43:00.000+08:00

This sucks...Had been hoping to go back HK for a shopping spree since the last time i came back. Waited so long for the March Holx and beared with the unbearable orientation just so that i can finally await the day to go back. But now...i'm still stuck in SG!!!! Why...? COz i have make up dance practices during the hols on MON and WED! AND i know the consequences of skipping it. I will suffer a horrific death by embarassing myself and wasting everyones time. So, what else can i do but hope that WED would end on time and i will run to catch my flight. Pls pray and bless me that i'll be on time and there is immediate seats for me. No stand by please! Well few days in HK is better then none to me i suppose. I just cant take the life in SG anymore. I've been like going to tmall for the pass 5 days consecutively!!!

Ok enough of depressing itinery, one good news...THE ORIENTATION IS OVER!! YEAH!! REJOICE! 3 CHEERS! hahas. Ok today was like the best out of the 5 daes. Did the mass dance and its so fun. Guess some ppl wouldnt understand it as they just dint want to join in. Hey i danced badly but i still played along. Its boring enough during the first 4 days so i guess i can onli vent the boredom out by this activity! Hahaha. And well..the class list is still not out yet! I'm like dying to know the clasS! In case petition would start, which i definely wouldnt want to see. OK STOP PAUSE , I'm starting to feel the depression again...And all those 'WHAT IFS?'

Well, nothing much to post for now i guess.. But since i cant go back shopping and its friday, I'm just gonna pig out. Time to replenish my lack of sleep afterall! And bless me once again for my trip to HK and also that i dont break or strain any bones/muscles/nerves during the dance practice...Believe me, its torturous by the look of it! Hahahs.. Ending of here so cya soon!

Sam.

P.S. IF ANYONE WANTS ANYTHING FROM HK, WELCOME TO PLACE ORDERS AND BUDGETS.bUT NO GURANTEE I CAN GET IT! Yuppies, thats all folks!

2006-03-08T20:52:00.000+08:00

Ok i gonna use small fonts. Thought that the normal size was still quite large to be placed in the blog. Well like i said, orientation is damn boring it just sucks. Today was no better. In fact, worse! Got so many damn breaks...Just a waste of time! Wonder when can this 2 days finally be over? Theres like more breaks tomoz!!! Haish. Sad life.

Oh and ya...I've finally decided on my subject combi. I'm going into lit econs hist h1 maths first to secure a place wif A05. Then i'm gonna switch from hist to arts! Well i cant say i'm even good at arts (drawing and all sorts) but the way the teacher said it, im like tempted. It seems fun...Well just hope that i can do well or even pass it!

Ok i'll just like stop here and ya...I'm just plain freaking tired! See ya!

2006-03-07T22:19:00.000+08:00

Yep Yep...Now THIS is Samantha here! That was just a GENIUS friend of mine! And she is right, her job was to help me get this blog up! Wahahas...Thankx Tina for helping me settle this thingy. I admit i suck at this. But why do i have to know such things since i know my great friend would help me out rite...;)

OKOK, lets begin... I'm gonna mourn once again! ORIENTATION IS A REAL BORE! I mean how enjoying can it be when there is NO GAMES, a hell lot of INTRO LECTURES and re experience the whole thingy. Its like just a repeat of 3rd January when we all came into school. Cant they allow us an earlier march holx?

Next up... I seriously hate choosing subject combinations! You may think it seems to be like nothing much to choose about. But really, it damages alot of my brain cells and i'm like aging so quickly now! I know i'm taking econs, lit and H1 maths. But should i like really take history or shall i try appeal and test out arts? I mean what if i make either choose and i flunk it...? Its not like i will want to redo my 2 yrs A level duhx?! So now what...i have no idea either? Sad life!

And lastly... I REALLY REALLY MISS 06A05! It just feels incomplete when any one is not present. And HUI QI~!!! I miss you alot...wahhahs...No one argue with me anymore! Feels so weird. Just hope that you enjoy your life (not that soon! mourn first!) in AJ and dont ever forget me or the class! I just hope after posting, the remainding of us are still together. I dont wanna split class.

Ok...Im just like gonna stop here but if any of you wants to see some class pic, you can go to my msn spaces...Yuppie thats all folks! And once again...Thankx ah ma for your genius help in setting this bloggie up!

Love ya!
P.S I had changed this to small fonts...Wahahs

2006-03-07T19:16:00.000+08:00

TESTING.. YES I'M testing..
why do i have to test?
well, that's my job